That person
Monday, February 28, 2011
Can no longer hold on to you
It seems weird to blog again, but all of a sudden blog seem like the only isolated place where i can pen down my thoughts for you and only you. It all went too dramatic of how i lost you and your soul in front of me and only realised it was so regretful after so long, i really regretted for not holding onto your hand tightly that you left me. I really really really want to reset how i feel and tell you everything and everything after my two days, but you thrown me away on my birthday. Do you know how i really feel? i wanted to tell you everything that you want to hear so badly for 3 years to you on that day but by the day came everything went too late and you went to him. I kept mute till feelings are piling up and they are flowing out from my eyes and i had thoughts on being the bad guy to cut in between what had already happened! but i couldn't know, want, bear to do it! It just hurt me so bad, bad that i did not treasure you enough, know you enough, hold onto you enough, barrcading you too much from me. this whole story gets so complicated that no one even understand it and i didn't know how to react to this whole matter anymore. Maybe i should be the bad guy the ass the bastard that you all might had seen in me.