It seems weird to blog again, but all of a sudden blog seem like the only isolated place where i can pen down my thoughts for you and only you. It all went too dramatic of how i lost you and your soul in front of me and only realised it was so regretful after so long, i really regretted for not holding onto your hand tightly that you left me. I really really really want to reset how i feel and tell you everything and everything after my two days, but you thrown me away on my birthday. Do you know how i really feel? i wanted to tell you everything that you want to hear so badly for 3 years to you on that day but by the day came everything went too late and you went to him. I kept mute till feelings are piling up and they are flowing out from my eyes and i had thoughts on being the bad guy to cut in between what had already happened! but i couldn't know, want, bear to do it! It just hurt me so bad, bad that i did not treasure you enough, know you enough, hold onto you enough, barrcading you too much from me. this whole story gets so complicated that no one even understand it and i didn't know how to react to this whole matter anymore. Maybe i should be the bad guy the ass the bastard that you all might had seen in me.

Monday went down to zouk under 18 party cus its organise by 4 jc for their sort of like after prom night celebration. Well we could acutally get into the above 18 but its was a way way long long queue so we decided to enter the under 18 cus anw we are not planning to spend much on drinks. Oh yah who went with me? hahas of cus must have some jc people if not how to get the tickets..lol guan jio me so i jio weichong and ah nah loh but in the end we waited for jia tian, weiqi and huahuang at ps then we take a bus there. Well inside was cramps with lots of people at the dancefloor but only me and guan went down the rest dont dance so i guess cant be force >_>
Could not get any photo cus we din take any and left at around 2.30 and reached home near 3 and guess what? I am having school in like a few hours time cus its tuesday! Dang but nevertheless i still able to wake up and reach school on time, then got back two quiz paper with shitty marks zzz so fed up. I guess just need to work harder bah.

Planning on working during the upcoming term break but i guess i cant anymore reason is cus i need to rush our my projects so that after that i am able to hand in on time. Dont wanna rush projects last min. IT SUCKS HONESTLY!

Meanwhile starting on my first practical driving this sunday ahh i know i am kinda slow compared to others cus i simply took my own sweet time to find a instructor and book a time with him. Anw hopefully can complete it fast? then i will be able to drive to sch and round sg le wahha~ Patience~

Hey~ Anyone misses me? Well acutally had some lame reason for not blogging lately mainly is because i am lazy and of cause not in a mood to do so. I even had thought of closing this blog but anw i am back to blog!

Alot of things happeneds while i had not been blogging but i am not gotta going to post them up here. Getting on with my driving hopefully i can finish it up fast.

Mainly my reason for blogging today was to spam some randomness so its going to get very confusing it. I just feel like typing them down.

My mood was kinda affected but i never knew that that issue could acutally affect me and i suddenly feel a big big rock had been drop from my heart. I just felt that my oldself is back? or not. I just have a sudden feel of how my friends are feeling now. blah i also donno what i am talking about now.. all mixed feeling. off to bed right now

Well back here to clean away the dust, acutally for those who know me know i am busy working lah but i do indeed have time to do blogging just that no mood lah haha, i know you all dont mind one de right?

Tomorrow will be my LAST PAPER!!! Although i kinda screw ooad up and which i feel i am going to do the same thing again for dbms but i try lah~ After that will be very busy with work of a chain of weeks of working i guess.

This sunday will be ah lun flight to cambodia liao. Wish i can go with him but cant so can only wish him enjoy there and learn something over there. Life can be so inspiring yah?

Anw read about a news that a 19 girl die from a car crash, and her besty wrote everything on her blog just to transmit the msg hopefully to her. To us it maybe just another accident but the people around her received impact like the world ended a millions times. Maybe because of blog we are able to get into the life of their best friend, family of how they feel. There is one case on a ns guy die while training and his girlfriend written her thoughts on her blog and people who read it could acutally feel how she was feeling.

It was like the person who play and talk with you now and then sharing secrets and stuffs just suddenly disappear its like a sudden disconnection and so much stuffs haven been told to this person and those memories so precious. Though i does not have a similar case AND I DO NOT DO NOT WISH TO HAVE ONE OF THIS CASE! Somehow it will come to me naturally one day. I really cannot think what will happen to me, just my guinea pig alone already made me cry the night out and emoing. Of course this person have to be a special one that is why when he/she disappear will be a impact. I believe everyone is special in someone heart and it is just being kept unless that person is really so bad. Even mat selamat also have friends and family that pray and cry that he must be safe and sound.

Alright enough of this sad sad moments, back to my main topic~ I MISS BEACH LIFE SO MUCH! I miss the wave! I miss the winds! I miss the fine sand! I miss the smelly boat burning fuel smell~ hahas and I miss sunbathing! I miss the sea water, I miss the night where starts so bright and big just by staring at them you feel so peaceful and the wind blowing at your face when you are lying on the sand, the great seafoods we had and drinks at the jetty~

Blogged kinda late for this post. Today is thurday and now is 1.05 am.... hmm kinda early if i sleep now if there is no stuffs for the next day. Anw let me wish a happy belated birthday here to Ms Shili. How was the fighting fish lol?
The chalet ended and went to the chalet at aranda which the seniors had organised for us and well din stay over cus need to do something for the next day and all left our only person from IT staying there lol but anw hope you have fun and dont scold me for leaving earlier Audrey >_<
Not much people stayed over mostly from BI and BT i guess? MIT only Janice and friend and EI only Alvin shirlyn they all.

Nothing much to write cus exams coming....i wishes so much that the mugging feeling come right now! I still have so much haven revise sia! After the exam gotta work till siao liao cus need to buy quite a numbers of stuffs especially my dive eq~ will be costing me a bomb.